Running To Stand Still

Not only is Running To Stand Still an awesome song by U2, it is something that I am attempting to do.  I have been spending so much of my time in my own little vacuum going over and over the events that have gotten me here, colonless, that one day it dawned on me~I need to get moven or I am going to wake up someday only to find life has gone on living without me! It is a scary realization to come upon, life going on without you. I have 4 beautiful children that I think might want me in the present, enjoying life with them, not mowing over the past.
So I figured a good goal for me to set for myself would be to 'Conquer the things I think I can not'.  Heck, I never thought I could live through the pain and utter humiliation of UC and then a complete colectomy, ileosotomy for 9 months, MRI's, CT scans (I couldn't even tell you how many), PET scans, bone marrow biopsy, lung biopsy and then collapse, testing/waiting for results, cancer?, NO CANCER, ileostomy takedown/J-pouch hooked up, j-pouch stricture, twisted j-pouch, another surgery to un-twist the pouch and recovery!!! I wont even start on all of the colonoscopies and preps, yuck~But I did!!! I did it with 4 kids and an awesome husband standing by me and a lot of answered prayers.
Something else that I never thought that I could be is a runner! Just don't really enjoy it. But when I was at my sickest waiting for surgery I could barley walk up a flight of stairs. I was so weak (thanks to all the horrible drugs, the constant bleeding and malnutrition that comes with going to the bathroom over 25 times a day! UC rocks, NOT!!) I couldn't open the back door to our home and lift my leg at the same time to go inside. I fell and couldn't get up without a ton of effort. So now that I am on my road to emotional recovery and regaining my physical strength the thought can to me~"I want to run like Forest Gump!" Yes, I know, but I am not a runner, YET!
I am registered to run in the Chicago 13.1 (half marathon) with Team Challenge, Race for a Cure in June 2010! (anyone want to join me?) I have many doubts if I can run the whole 13.1 miles, but I am sure going to try! I have come so far in this journey and I will prove it once again that I can Conquer the things I think I can not.

I will keep you all updated on my running progress! The good, the bad and the ugly!  Six months and counting...